梦里不知身是客，一晌贪欢。

我真得很久没有上MSN了，今天一下子看了好多个朋友的space更新，不禁感叹两个字“迷茫”。
几乎所有人都在迷茫的非常努力的奔跑，读LAC的迷茫，读大U的迷茫，学Econ的迷茫，学Math的迷茫。
迷茫背后是什么？是害怕，是我们这个年龄应有的焦虑，对于未来，对于自我价值的实现。

当我到Davis Senior High School决定再念Junior的时候，
爸说，人走得慢没有关系，只要你朝着目标前进着，你要记得，你所走的每一步都是为了让你距离你的梦想更近一点。
我想就是因为他总是这样不停地告诉我人活着的意义，我才会分外珍惜我的每一天，我才会对偶尔浪费时间的行为感到可耻。

当确定目标以后，还是会感到迷茫和害怕，因为一路很辛苦，因为不断有人提醒你，you will never get there，可是只有你内心一息微弱的声音在说，GO FOT IT! YOU CAN MAKE IT。

不过其实我也什么都没有，只有满满的自信。

This is really a super old problem...


Einstein's  Problem

The author of this problem is Albert Einstein who said that 98% of the people in the world couldn't solve it.

		Facts:
1.		There are 5 houses (along the street) in 5 different colors:       blue, green, red, white and yellow.
2.		In each house lives a person of a different nationality:       Brit, Dane, German, Norwegian and Swede.
3.		These 5 owners drink a certain beverage:       beer, coffee, milk, tea and water, smoke a certain brand of cigar:       Blue Master, Dunhill, Pall Mall, Prince and blend, and keep a certain pet:       cat, bird, dog, fish and horse.
4.		No owners have the same pet, smoke the same brand of cigar, or drink the same beverage.
		Hints:
1.		The Brit lives in a red house.
2.		The Swede keeps dogs as pets.
3.		The Dane drinks tea.
4.		The green house is on the left of the white house (next to it).
5.		The green house owner drinks coffee.
6.		The person who smokes Pall Mall rears birds.
7.		The owner of the yellow house smokes Dunhill.
8.		The man living in the house right in the center drinks milk.
9.		The Norwegian lives in the first house.
10.		The man who smokes blend lives next to the one who keeps cats.
11.		The man who keeps horses lives next to the man who smokes Dunhill.
12.		The owner who smokes Blue Master drinks beer.
13.		The German smokes Prince.
14.		The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.
15.		The man who smokes blend has a neighbor who drinks water.
		The question is:  Who keeps fish?

哲学是什么？
“哲学”是我向来不屑的两个字。
就像大多数不屑都来自无知一样（比如种族歧视），我不屑哲学，因为我对它的无知。
我从来没有深入去了解它，尽管我曾经抱着一本翻译的西方哲学史看，看到最后还是放弃了。
我承认我对哲学仍然无知，可是从现在起，我开始敬畏它了。
It is far beyond anything.

"The unexamined life is not worth living."
——Socrates





今天第一次去做光疗甲，效果不错啊，就是贵了点，但是用的是凝胶，无毒的，比指甲油好多了。

我今天用了一天电脑，眼睛痛，头痛，过了两点心脏就会痛。

瑜伽教练说，当你不再长高，你的身体就已经开始衰老了。对于女生来说，这意味着，臀部下垂，身体僵硬等等等，我们不愿意看到的事情。
这样看来，我十三岁就开始衰老了，因为那年我就有今天这么高了。我家书房的墙壁上，还留着我爸工整的“02.03.16早”。
02年是什么概念？那是很多年前。
恩。人的记忆真的惨淡地可怜。每天发生那么多事，说那么多话，做那么多梦，有那么多感觉，到头来好像泼出去的水，都是空的。那到底什么东西沉淀下来了呢？
人真的不能往回看，因为寻找过去是可笑又可悲的“一厢情愿”。
既然不能眷恋过去，那就应该瞭望未来。因为未来，真得很美。而现实是什么？现实只是将被我们踩在脚下，布满沟壑的垫脚石。


背景歌曲 
Where No Endings End - Keren Ann

Send me off shore
It's a cold blooded war
I can't win
I give in
I give in

In the field of my fight
We can wonder all night
Why we have
All this love
All this love

You and I, we were drawn
In the break of the dawn
With the boreal wind
But we can't change the world
No we can't change the world
It's been done
by someone
long ago

Send me off shore
There's a bright semaphore
Calling in
Every wind
Every wind

In the loop of my game
There's a whole life to blame
It's been done
But we won
what we won

You and I, we both run
with a unloaded gun
For the same piece of land
Where no endings end
But we can't change the world
No we can't change the world
It's been done
by someone
long ago

Send me off shore
She's a cold blooded war
I can't win
I give in
I give in

人生就是这么无奈，我们必须学会不痛不痒地从一种无奈跳进另一番无奈。不爽。
明天就这样穿出门。我喜欢长长的耳饰，把我圆圆的脸拉长，像埃及艳后那样。

选课对我来说向来都是很头疼的事情。
今天花了整整一天，终于把winter term的课程选好。

一个小插曲，本来一周前看micro/macro econ的时候，这些课都没有位子了，我其实早都放弃准备summer的时候把这两门课一起上，谁知道，刚刚我心血来潮，又去看了看，发现MICROECONOMICS居然有1个位子空出来！！！我想当激动，鼠标都飞起来了。
又一个小插曲，www.ratemyprofessor.com 真的超有用，至少那些hard markers的课我是死也不会选的。GPA comes first!

class schedule:

Professional & Business Ethics
Intro to Microeconomics
Intro to Sociology

Intro to Philosophy of Science

Applied Linear Algebra 1

这种schedule一看上去就相当intense and scary，可是没办法，谁叫我要读Arts？
不经历风雨，怎能见彩虹。
人就是要经过变态reading tasks, papers的洗礼，才能sharp writing skills, improve critical thinking ability。
为了HLS，humanities courses猛烈地朝我吹过来吧！
选课是选课，真正上课又是另一回事。真不知道自己可不可以handle一周几百页的reading。
Hope I will survive...

一下子搭配了四套，呵呵，主要是运用不同颜色产生的和谐的效果，恩，符合simple的原则。我发现呐，牛仔裤真的是啥都可以配，太省钱了。但是，耳饰及项链就要根据不用颜色，风格的上装来搭配，所以就导致我家的耳饰现在已经差不多有100+副了。可是我真的超喜欢earrings的，每到一个地方，就是看当地特色的耳饰。古典的，现代的，塑料的，锆石的，我都爱。因为通常一个小小的细节会起到画龙点睛的作用。

> I really need to think about my career path...and life pursue...

> it seems barely possible to get into IB/consulting firms without a master degree/graduate. so maybe i should finish all undergrad credits in less three years and go to top law/business school. i have to. damn it... 
working experience is worth a lot in b-school admission, it is shown that in *** b-school, the average working length, for income first yr students, is about 48 months...god..four years!! those who enroll in b-school directly from college have the percentage only less than 5% (for H, it is 2%!)...
ahh, i really wanna enter this field before 26 years old..seriously...since it is a HEALTH-CONSUMING job, and i-banker hav no life at all...(assuming this job suits me, and im capable to handle it...)
ok...since b-schools expect working experience in ur resume, i may go for law school. lets take upenn as an example, around 36% of coming students just graduate from college. FABULOUS... however, for top law schools, scoring 170 in LSAT and having a GPA of 3.8+ is a must... okay...stop dreaming, 170 and 3.8 is my goal! im not over-confident, i just believe that where there is a will, there is a way...

如果说我的童年，包括少年时期，有什么很严重的缺失，那便是游戏了。computer games, not children activies。
世界上应该找不到第二个像我这样的游戏白痴，听到“游戏”这两个字只能联想到“扫雷”和“贪食蛇”。
我不是不思进取，而是真的一点兴趣都没有。

搭了一套相当成熟滴衣衣给卤蛋同学...

ps: 卤蛋..我的麻花什么时候到哈..

原来...搭配衣服是会上瘾的...5555...

but im lovin it!! who cares anywayz...lol...

穿衣原则

Simple But Elegant

这套超sweet







这套适合初冬，grey&purple looks wonderful!